"The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me: thy mercy, O Lord, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands." - Psalm 138:8
This is an especially comforting verse for me today. I watched the movie In the Heart of the Sea and was struck by the way that a man confessed a secret he had held his whole life. His wife’s words of reassurance were what made me think of God. He was afraid that she would not accept him for such a dark secret. She proved him wrong. I could only associate that scene with how God shows his mercy for us if we confess our sins just as the bible says:
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." - 1 John 1:9
All I could think about was how I wanted to feel the courage to confess my own sins to Jesus, the way the man did in the movie. Fully vulnerable, fully humble, with fear and trembling, yet so courageous. He was so relieved when he had finally released the secrets that were tormenting his soul. So I felt inspired by that and motivated by my own need to make as much peace as I can. No sin is worth going to hell for, but I cannot humanly prevent myself from committing sin. So I must continually confess and repent. Jesus is the only one with the power to redeem me, and he started something in me a long time ago that he has yet to finish. So I am assured of my purpose in Him and I am accepting of His will for me. My God will not let me fall after building me up this much, this far down the path, and this deep into His ways. I struggle a lot with doubts and even confusion sometimes. I know that He won’t leave me though. I know what I need to do, and I’m going to be obedient. I have lost so much already. I don’t want to lose my soul too.